Friday, December 09, 2005
wat a night
i was already having difficulty in falling aslp. perhaps i've slept to much during the day? or many things weigh on my mind. as i woke up, i could even rem tt i had 2 bad dreams. i woke up feeling startled n lost. gosh!!! dont ask me wat the dreams were cos i dun rem but all i know is tt i woke feeling frightened. damn!!! not a v gd sign.
lunch was at crystal jade again! the sickness of mine is here to stay...but i did took the med aft meal. gosh!!!
if u ask me how i'm feeling now...
in a state of missing him,
in a state of panic for i want to complete my work b4 i leave for aus
wat i look forward to...
dbl-o tmr - the retro songs...i cant drink much though but enuf to feel high...
aus - leave spore n coming back forgetting the past
at the end of the day, the struggle is hard but i'm coping well i think n i hope. though i find myself staring at my hp n hoping to hear tt familiar ring tone again, looking thru the photos we took - those sweet moments tog...damn...i'm missing you. cant u feel anything at all? r u really coping better than me? argh...muz we haf the ending u want? cant we reach a compromise?
still the stubborn me. u're right...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
4:35 pm
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